peace.

love.

understanding.

"there is an amazing power available to those who can walk away.''

Life will and always manage to throw us curve balls. If you are not happy then leave. It is not necessarily in relationships either. In any aspect in one's life you have the power and the authority to cut out all the negativity that is hindering you from where you want to be and who you want to become. I was once told ''the longest journey begins with a single step.'' Everyone is frightened or a bit intimidated of leaving what they are already used to, but then how will you ever experience life for what it truly is? You have to step outside the box- leave your comfort zone. You can't always play it safe.

If your significant other is not treating you the way you ought to be treated- leave ! It is not worth sacrificing your happiness for someone else's. Be selfish and put you first for once.

If your group of friends are into doing things that you are not comfortable with then- leave ! Don't conform into that social aspect. You know who you are. You don't need to prove yourself to anyone.

If you're not happy at your place of work- leave ! Would you not rather wake up every morning looking forward to do something you enjoy, then just be miserable? It is never too late.

Each one of us has the power to walk away, and the feeling you get after all is said and done is rather gratifying. You don't have to be stuck in a box looking for ways to get, and making excuses for yourself. You have the power to change your own destiny !

you and I are no different,
we breathe the same air.

you are no better than me,
so please, answer me this,
'who are you to judge me?'

do the decisions I make, make me and less of a person,
any less of a human?
you look down on me,
yet I always rise above you.

look at yourself in the mirror,
while I ask you again
'who are you to judge me?'

when you fall apart, am I the reason for your endless sorrow?

there's so much to be said

with a broken heart, your walls can only go down but so low

but can you hear me when I call your name?

complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong

&& I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long

there's got to be a better way for me to say what's on my heart without leaving scars

so can you hear me when I call your name?

learning to breathe,

learning to crawl,

finding the you,

&& you alone,

can break my fall.

living again,

awake && alive,

dying to breathe in these

abundant skies.

In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.

- Coco Chanel

experiences are not gone through for regret,

experiences are gone through to learn something.

I do not regret my past, my past has made me who I am.
I am who I am, I am who I will be.

Who I will be is whoever God intended me to be.
This is me, this is who I am.

"Now faith is the substance

of things hoped for ;; the

evidnce of things not seen."

-Hebrews 11:1

...I'm breathing ;; my heart is beating ;; I have faith that I'll be okay...

even in your darkest hour there is hope...

you choose how you are going to respond.

I choose to soar.

I would rather walk alone, and make my own trail,

rather than walk with someone in their trail,

I can make my own mark in this world.

I would liken you

To a night without stars
Were it not for your eyes.

I would liken you

To a sleep without dreams
Were it not for your songs.

-Langston Hughes

To my girls ...

best night ever !

I definitely needed that you guys made my night.

I don't know what I would do with out you guys.

My night consisted of anger,

from anger to tears,

tears to laughter,

laughter to being completely done !

My life with out you guys would be empty.

My tears- you dried them,

My pain- you healed it,

My smile- you made it.

I love you girls !

If some lives form a perfect circle,

other take shape in ways we cannot predict,

or always understand.

Loss has been part of my journey.

But it has also shown me what is precious.

So has love for which I can only be grateful.

you lost sight of what a relationship should be about,

so much

that you're trying to make it something it shouldn't be.

so I'm walking away.

act like a lady ;; think like a man.

Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.I loved her,
and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms

I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.

How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her.

To feel that I have lost her.To hear the immense night,

still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.

Her voide. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms

my sould is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer

and these the last verses that I write for her.

seems impossible to get to the other side ?













I don't believe in impossible !

some real ish !

It took me a little while to discover,

Wolves in sheep coats who pretend to be lovers,

Men who lack conscience will even lie to themselves,

A friend once said, and I found to be true,

That everyday people, they lie to God too,

So what makes you think, that they won't lie to you !

positive energy brings forth constant elevation.

thanks lanii mamii

someone once told me to write well you have to write what you know.

Well, this is what I know,

in order to make it to the top. you have to start at the bottom.

In order to do it big, you have to do it small.

You have to live free if you want to be free.

Life is a game with twists and turns,

in the end you have to come out victorious.

It is not about how big your mountains are,

it is about how well you are able to climb them.

You can't dwell on the past,

You have to move forward.

Move forward into the bright future ahead of you !

one thing about music is when it hits you;

you don't feel the pain.

simplicity**natural**black && white*

**essence of beauty**

:: stop ::

stop;

stop talking and listen;

listen to the world around you;

listen to the sound of the rain;

listen to the movement of the wind;

listen to the crashing waves on the sand;

listen to the loud roaring thunder;

listen to your inner voice;

listen to the silence;

For the silence speak louder than words.

12:52 a.m

Immortal Beloved

Be calm,
only by a clam consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together -
Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

listen...

"They say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself - Andy Warhol

Some people think that by sitting on their asses all day, and dreaming that one day they will make it big that it will happen for them..well newsflash you idiot life doesn't work out that way. Nothing in this world is handed to you on a silver platter as some people would say. In order to get what you want you have to work hard for it. You think A-Rod or Obama got where they are by sitting on their asses watching politics and baseball..I think not..Obama is our first black president..he busted his ass for that seat!

"Trust me one day he will learn to respect me."-umm pardon me but do you think that one day you're just going to wake up and your husband is a changed man..honestly he's a man..enough said! It's not a one way street..it's a two way street and if you want things to change you have to make it happen.

It's time people.

"you can not live your life for other people;

You've got to do what's right for you,

even if it hurts some people you love."

.abuelo.

I was in the hospital standing over my grandfather's bed when my mom looked up at me and said , "Amanda say good-bye." Right then and there I had falshbacks of all the conversations I ever had him with him. All the times he used to call and say "Amanda por que tu no me llamas..you know you need to call me." I thought to myself I wish I would have called him more. I wish I would have visited and helped him around the house more. Maybe if I was there I wouldn't be standing infront of his body with no life in him (if I only knew then what I now.)

I never said goodbye, but the pain and anger I felt became my motivation. My motivation to become something great, not just for me, not just for my family, but for my grandfather. The dream he had for me became the dream I have for myself. The truth is right now in this moment I am living my dream. I'm walking through life, as everyone else, with all the cracks and bumps in the road. I'm moving mountains that seem to hard to move, but I'm determined to get to the other side. I'm determined to make mistakes but never make them twice. My voice will be heard, people will be moved, people will know who I am. I will make a difference. For I am living my dream, I am living my grandfather's dream. My grandfather always use to say:

... "To know the way,

we go the way;

we do the way

the way we do

the things we do.

It's all there infront of you,

but if you try too hard to see it,

you'll only become confused.

I am me,

and you are you,

as you can see;

but when you do

the thing that you can do,

You will find the way,

and the way will follow you.

So my grandfathers dream is my dream. His words "mi vida you are my dream" has stuck with me and will stick with me to the end. Abuelo if you hear me I live for you.